Spiritual filth?

I’m a great judge of character.  I’m hardly ever shocked at people’s ‘sudden’ change of behaviours and it’s not surprising that I have very few friends.  You see, people are great pretenders. Very rarely do people show their real selves. They give you ‘face’. And the people you think you know, you don’t really know at all 😊.

Let’s take myself as an example,  I may be well dressed, seem like I have it all together and always smiling. I may know all the books of the bible,  have my own house and car. May have a great family and what seems to be an admirable life.  However, I may be the most wicked, selfish, depressed, negative, procrastinating woman you may ever meet. And secretly, everything in my life is falling apart.

But if I give u ‘face’ you will never know how evil my heart really is. However, you have already placed me above the drug addicts and prostitutes because of the way I carry myself. But beneath my exquisite clothing and eloquent manner, I may be the most evil and conniving person you will ever meet in your life. Yes, I may appear to have no filthiness of flesh, but what about my dirty, pungent spirit?

2 Corinthians 7:1 says we should cleanse ourselves from the filthiness of the flesh AND the spirit. It’s all good not fornicating and being the first one in service on Sunday morning but you are hateful, jealous and greedy. What’s the point in that? Isn’t that conflicting? Don’t get me wrong, no one is perfect, but, how can you be a hateful christian? I’m sorry sister, but why are you mad that someone is in “your seat”? 😏

Saints I’m encouraging us to do better. Not in our own strengths of course. We cannot do it without God. How dare we have a form of godliness.  Let’s ask God to turn our spiritual filth into spiritual fruits; love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control 😊.


Pray without ceasing?

I hear many people say that they don’t know how to pray, and they don’t want to sound foolish when they pray etc. I used to be that person. Don’t you dare ask me to pray in a meeting or pray for someone out loud! Fear of what others may think seems to be a big hinderance in prayer. But we must realise that we are not praying to them. People are not the ones to answer your prayers.

Prior to having a prayer life, I would foolishly hide in prayer meetings, evading eye contact with the pastor, to avoid him picking on me. I was never even vocal in my ‘prayer life’ at home. I would just say it in my head, lol. That is, until I got into trouble. When I got into trouble, I prayed!

How is that even possible? How could I know how to pray only in trouble? Was it the pressure of it all? Or possibly, I knew that God would have been the only one to help at that time? And so I decided, if I can pray in trouble, nothing should stop me from praying anytime.

But how do I pray? What do I say? I used to be intimidated when I saw people praying for what seemed to be hours 😏. Then I heard one pastor say, “If you pray with your mouth (not from your heart), you will run out of things to say.” And it is so true. Ponder on this for a minute. If out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks, then you obviously speak what’s on your heart. Now, throughout the bible, God reminds us to meditate on the word and to write the word on our hearts. Why do you think that is? So that when we do speak, the word comes out.

Yet most of us can cuss more than we can pray 😏. If the word is in you, you will know how to pray. Furthermore, Jesus in Luke 11 taught us how to pray. So don’t be intimidated by those who do big, long prayers. You are not in a race with anyone. Furthermore, your prayers do not have to be long to be effective. The fervent effectual prayer of the righteous availeth much. Don’t be like the hypocrites who babble for long periods of time without saying a thing. Jesus said their reward will be in heaven. So why would one aspire to be like them?

Instead, why don’t we aspire to be prayerful and effective? Let’s work on our relationship with God, let pray without ceasing 😊.

…I put away childish things

Someone once said to me that I was childish because I ‘wouldn’t leave her boyfriend alone’. That upset me so much because I was not in any way harassing him. I just wanted him to confess to his lies and to answer my questions so that I can finally have closure.

Looking back, it was quite childish lol. Why would I get so caught up in something someone did to me, magnify it so much and lose focus? Because it is exactly what children do. When you take something from a child, they cry and become so upset because it was “theirs” and all they can think about is them.

Children are selfish because they have not thoroughly grasped the understanding of right from wrong. And unfortunately that’s the case with some adults.

I once rode in a car with my friend and her two children. She took a toy away from one of the children. The child screamed endlessly, as if someone was beating him. He was inconsolable, all he wanted was his toy and that was it.

Sounds familiar? It is something we adults do. The only difference is in the types of toys we have. As adults, we have bigger, more expensive toys and we often place people into materialistic categories.

Paul, in 1 Corinthians said, “when I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.” Hmmm could it be that even though I am grown, my speech, reasoning and my thinking were that of a child?

In the earlier scenario, all three were childish. My childish speech, childish thoughts and childish reasoning made me look like a fool lol.

What are you doing to make you look like a fool? When are you going to become mature? Are you still feeding on milk when you should be eating solid food?

Aha! You see, there are some things children cannot possess, because they are underage, immature; ie: a driving licence, marriage, inheritance, etc.

If this is true for the physical, how much more so in the spirit? If you are not physically mature, you have no rights to certain things. Imagine how frustrating that would be if you remained a child forever.

Why then as Christians do we not strive to be spiritually mature? Or we can remain spiritually immature, and not reap the benefits of what God has in store for us.

Hebrews 5:12 says, “you have been believers so long now that you ought to be teaching others. Instead, you need someone to teach you again the basic things about God’s word…”

How then can one be more mature?

1. In your speech; ie: stop gossiping about others, using your words for edification instead of malice and destruction (Ephesians 4:29).

2. In your thoughts; ie: setting your minds on higher things, thinking on things that are pure and of good report (Colossians 3:2, Philippians 4:8).

3. In your understanding; ie: not leaning to your own reasoning but trusting in God (Proverbs 2:2-5, proverbs 3:5-6).

Let’s grow up and get rid of our childish ways, our old self. Let’s seek to eat meat, become mature, possessing the fruits of the spirit as we learn to speak, reason and think on a higher level 😊.

…..according to your own ability

I love the book of Jeremiah! It is where I realised that God has high thoughts of me and he deposited greatness inside of me. So how foolish would it be to envy my neighbours’ gifts, talents and belongings?

I remember wondering why I wasn’t married, had children, a boyfriend, or owned a house? And God showed me that I was struggling on my own with the little responsibility I had. How then can I manage all those things that I so desperately wanted? It was simply not my season, and I did not have the grace for it. So I stayed in my lane!

It’s good to stay in your lane and use what you have to get to the next level. Everyone was not dealt the same hand, but everyone is dealt a hand. No one is meant to be the same thing. Same is boring. That’s why there is variety. The world will be so dull if we were all rich. Who will help us to do our chores, raise our children and chauffeur us? And what will happen if we were all lawyers? Whose cases will we plead? Lol funny isn’t it? That is why it is good to know who you and and whose you are. And when you know those two, you won’t define success by men’s standards!

If one is a doctor and the other is a maid? People will say that the doctor is more successful, simply because of the way we foolishly measure success. Ever thought that one could be a terrible doctor, and the other can be the best, most thorough maid? We see parents wanting their children to be doctors and lawyers when they were born to be artists and dancers. We have an insane heirarchy system. One should be only as good as their own ability. I am not a pilot because I did not train to fly a plane. If I want to become a pilot, I must do what a pilot does. And since I’m not prepared for that, I do what I do, to the best of my ability.

2 Corinthians 10:12 says “it is foolish to compare yourself one to another…”. So profound! By whose standards is one better than another? Did God not give us talents according to our own ability (Matthew 25:15)? Or maybe, just maybe, you don’t know what you have 😊.

How do we get to know what we have? By asking the one who made us, God! He will tell you what he equipped you with and will give you the grace to do it well! Remember, no one can do you like you 😊. And when was the last time you saw a diamond on a surface? Dig deep.

The end of us…meaningless?

Most people have been through the death of a relationship. It’s often painful and incomprehensible, not because one person died, but because the person who left does not want you, and is happy with someone else. And you, well, you’re busy crying, reminiscing on the good times you once had and in total denial of being single again.

Now, I’m not saying that’s how everyone reacts towards a breakup! But, for those who do, save your tears and burn the memories. I have witnessed too much to tell you that your tears are actually in vain. He/she is not the one who got away, it is no one’s fault, and the situation could not be fixed. Reality is, they were not for you!

Difficult to grasp? Get off your high horse for a minute. No one has to stay with you and no one has to love you. So when you see him happily married to her, with her 6 kids, be happy for them. He is probably what she needed. Since when did this become about you? Now, my favourite book in the bible is Ecclesiastes! I think it’s witty and real with sarcastic undertones. The first line of the book says, “everything is meaningless”. To an extent it is so true. We are here to serve God, so why are we distracted by silly things, like a man leaving us?

If he left, aren’t you still a woman? Why become bitter and let people who don’t love you, have all of this power over you? I once said to this guy I dated, “I’m happy you met her, just love her more than you loved me”. His reply was shocking. He said he didn’t love her, but he can’t leave her, lol then later on he said, he loved us both, further to that, he said, he really loves his girlfriend. Ok, was he confused or what? Why was I with him again? Why did I waste my precious tears and energy? It was all meaningless!

Ecclesiastes 3:1 says, There is a time for every purpose under heaven. Therefore, there was a time for your breakup and a purpose for that. And there is a time to be single, and a purpose for that also. Why are you trying to complicate your life? Remember, nothing just happens, and she did not steal your man! Lol There are so many things to do on earth, than to get tied up into silliness. After all, everything is meaningless right? Ha! And these are light afflictions!

So what if your wife left you? Cry for a day and keep it moving. How can you die over someone you met? How else are you going to meet who you’re meant to meet? Aha! Life can be pretty simple but we tend to complicate matters as we prefer to be massochists. It’s ok to cry. It’s ok to be emotional but it’s not ok to be hurt beyond repair. Nah, Jesus did not die for you to be miserable.😊

A form of godliness

In Isaiah 28:13, God said, “these people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far away from me.” Had me thinking, “how close is my heart to God, am I just a christian in public and am I walking in alignment to the word?”

I have seen many Christians publicly display christian-like behaviour but are lacking spiritual strength and maturity. And I’ve also seen many Christians display power, heal the sick, speak in tongues, all evidence of the Holy Spirit and of spiritual maturity but won’t spit on you if you are on fire.

If I’m not mistaken, to be a christian is to be Christ like, imitators of Jesus. Do you know how hard it is to imitate someone who did not sin? It is painful, the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. And that is why it is called suffering. To suffer with him is to reign with him right? So why aren’t we willing to suffer, endure like good soldiers in order to reap an eternally blessed harvest? Or be willing to circumcise our flesh, and burn our fleshly desires?

To be carnally minded is death. This death or separation from the father is no joke. He is the vine and we are the branches. Imagine yourself separated from your root and source! Oh how tragic! You will just wither away or be like the chaff in the wind!!

So the opposite of death is obviously life. And that’s why Jesus died, for us to have life. And the only way we can live abundantly is if we walk in the spirit. Forget what your physical eyes are seeing. Paul prayed for the eyes of our understanding to be enlightened. Once they are opened and you have that revelation of Christ, it is essential to renew your minds daily as well as pray without ceasing.

” The things I don’t want to do, that I keep on doing!” – Appostle Paul
Your flesh wants to be what the spirit is to you. And when you walk according to the flesh, it attempts to imitate the intimacy you should be having with Jesus.

Yes the flesh is weak but greater is he that is within! We don’t want to be known as hypocrites or shady. Don’t have a form of godliness. Be the light and salt of the earth. There must be a difference between believers and non believers. Don’t conform to what everyone is doing but be transformed by the renewing of the mind. Be a christian in public and in private! Let people say, ah yes, he/she is certainly a christian.

And how can sin have dominion over us if we are under grace? Grace helps us not to sin. For where sin abounds, grace abounds much more.

How tragic would it be to hear, “depart from me you worker of iniquity”, when you have been casting out demons in Jesus name! Let’s all strive to hear, “well done, good and faithful servant”. Don’t let your sins testify against you.


Why do people snap, what makes people do strange things, what drives people to commit horrendous crimes? Most times people are shocked by the behaviours of such individuals. But what if that individual was you?

In a conversation with my aunt, I vividly remember her saying, “the devil has got you”. My reaction was to curse at her and not speak to her for years. Has the devil gotten a hold of me or was that who I was? As far as I was concerned, I was normal, a good person, but, was I in denial?

When did I lose my way? When did I become a lying, conniving, promiscuous, cheating female? They say hurt people hurt others and that is exactly what I did. The irony is, I ended up hurting myself all over again.

So, how can one who looks normal, be so deceitful? I guess it’s true, you can’t judge a book by its cover. Which reverts me to my initial question. Why are we shocked by peoples’ behaviours?

According to the bible, there is nothing outside of a man that can defile him. Yes it is out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. And that heart is deceitfully wicked.

Now, I spoke in my last post about being fearfully and wonderfully made. So how then,  can one’s heart be wicked?

God instructed Jeremiah to go down to the potter’s house and it was illustrated to him how we can be made again even if we were marred (Jeremiah 18:4).

How then does one become marred? How does one’s heart become wicked? It is because of ‘the fall’. We were all born in sin and shaped in iniquity. No one teaches children to steal nor to lie, they just do.

Without Jesus, we are all slaves to sin. Our environment also serves as strong holds, and every negative seed brought in by the enemy through friends, family, culture etc can be watered into fruition. Hence why the bible instructs us to write the words of God on our hearts.

The apostle Paul wrote that the things he doesn’t want to do, he continues to do. He reiterated that it is not he who is doing it, but it is his sinful nature.

Now, I did some horrendous things in the past. And when confronted, I denied and lied because I just could not see myself doing such things. I was a product of my environment and became marred, that was, until I found out what God hoped for when he made me. Then I took all those strongholds in my life and cast them down to the obedience of Christ, hence making the word of God my new stronghold.

The bible instructs us to be holy as he is holy and one can only do so by trading who reigns in your life, and renewing your mind daily. Yes we need to pray without ceasing and put on the full armour of God or we risk falling into the trap of the enemy once again.

I have realised one thing in life. Never say never. You don’t know what seed has been planted on your heart. The only difference between yourself and a perpetrator is timing and getting caught. You do not know what you would do if you were placed in someone else’s situation.

I did not know I would behave like I did when tested. So even if there was no devil, I ask God to protect me from me. Think about it, you would not be the same person if you grew up elsewhere. So stop leaning on to your own understanding. The bible shows that men are cursed when they trust in other humans and themselves. Let’s ask God to direct our paths so that we can be who he hoped for.

Fearfully and wonderfully made

If you don’t know the value of something, you will abuse it, including your own life. Kings and Queens  carry themselves as royalty, because they know who they are. Likewise, if you are a christian, you should be Christ like and carry yourself like the royal priesthood that you are. However, many of us don’t even know that we are royalty and we look to mere humans for approval. Galatians 1:10 says if seeking people’s approval is your goal, then you would not be a servant of Christ.

God made each and every one of us in his image. Fearfully and wonderfully made. And if you don’t know who you are, people will gladly tell you who you are based on their perception of you. When I was a child, I  hated myself. I thought I was ugly because people said I was. I had the lowest self esteem ever. How tragic for a young girl. When I got older, I used clothes to validate me. I would wear the shortest and tightest to prove to others that I looked good. But little did I know that I was setting my own trap, to be called even worse names than ugly, and guess what, I believed them. So the cycle continued. I hated how I looked and was willing to go under the knife for unnecessary surgery. The low value I placed on myself, made me most susceptible to abuse and so, I allowed people to treat me harshly to the point where I thought I was a nobody. Yes, I was thrown into the bottom of the barrel and left there, and I thought I deserved it all.

In Ezekiel 16, God spoke of his adulterous wife Jerusalem. For the splendour he had given them made their beauty perfect but they chose to prostitute themselves because they still did not know who they were. Are you prostituting yourself because you don’t know your father? Are you giving away a body that is not yours?  Even though God punished the Israelites, he re established an everlasting covenant with them. Isn’t God great?

You have to abort the negative seeds that people try to plant in your life. Don’t give them attention or they will come into fruition. Instead, make the word of God your stronghold. Don’t get high off the accolades of others, people change their minds but God always keeps his promises. And even though you were marred, and you were not what he hoped for, he can make you again, another.

A sacrificial life

Lately, I’ve been so drained, tired and at times very disorientated. I am not one to complain, I tend to just carry on, enduring like a good soldier, until I just can’t anymore. I have been asking God to help me with my job situation. It is really taking a toll on me physically. Mentally, I’ve cast all my cares on God, but I’m depleting physically and if I don’t get it under control, it will soon manifest spiritually and mentally.

I always say this, if you don’t like something, then change it. But what do you do when you cannot change it? And I think that is where my frustration lies. I cannot change my situation right now due to personal issues. So my weapon is prayer. Whilst walking through the park, I asked God why am I in such a job with no personal gains? I am basically sacrificing myself for the benefit of my patients. He showed me this, “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters” – Colossians 3:22-24. Ah, yes Lord!

Now this spoke volumes to me as it reminded me of the sacrificial life as a Christian. To be Christ like and selfless. No more me, me, me, like infants, but him, him, him, Jesus. It’s the circumcision of the flesh, the burning away of fleshy desires, all to serve him. We must suffer with him to reign with him. Yes, it is hard to give up all your pre- existing knowledge, to put on the mind of Christ. 

But why this sacrificial life? Because before we were born, God knew us, and sanctified us. He said his plans for us are good, to give us an expected end. For eyes have not seen, nor have ears heard nor have entered the hearts of men the things God has in store for those who love him.

So questions to myself are; don’t I want an expected end? Doesn’t God see that I am weary? And isn’t he faithful to build me up and even remove me from an unhealthy situation? Won’t it be better to set my eyes on the higher things, because my current circumstances are temporary? Yes, this sacrificial life is all worth it, I’m awaiting an expected end.

Perception is everything

“When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the Rock that is higher than I”

What do you do when you’re overwhelmed? How are you under pressure?
Everyone handles things differently. Everyone sees things differently. It’s all about perspective.

I work in a very challenging environment. Both physically and mentally. Most times I am at breaking point because it is just too much going on at the same time. Yet, I wear a smile, I keep my cool and my colleagues are always like, ” why are you so happy?” My response is, I don’t care. My job is to care but not to take on any cares of this world. Isn’t that what Jesus died for? Didn’t he say cast all your care upon him? Won’t I go home in my peaceful bed after a chaotic shift? So why get overwhelmed?

Before Accepting Jesus, I was a stress head. Always crying and panicking and always overwhelmed. I thought the world was against me because everything was always going wrong. I just wanted to die.  I thought I would be better off dead than to deal with everything that was going on in this crazy world. But what I was going through was what everyone else was going through lol. I wasn’t running for my life, I wasn’t being persecuted nor was I fleeing from a genocide. So what on earth was I complaining about?

I already spoke on Elijah in my previous post. A gifted man of God but was suffering from depression. Many people are dying inwardly and we don’t know it. Makes you wonder, how can one be so talented, so beautiful, got their life together, yet are secretly miserable, wanting to die because they hate their own life. How did they get to that place?

When you rehearse painful experiences, magnify a small situation and remain in your past, you will not see up; until, you change your mind, cast it on Jesus, and reckon your situation. Your latter days will be better than your former days. Don’t you dare quit! One day, that thing that was once your ceiling, will become your floor.

I can now laugh at the things that used to keep me up at night. Lol yes, it is absolutely hilarious. They didn’t kill me, they made me stronger. Now I have been promoted lol. I balanced my columns, those things didn’t kill me, but I sure learnt a lot from them. You can either see your situation as a tragedy or an opportunity. Sometimes, it can even show you how desperately wicked your heart is. Look, life is given to you once, cast all your care on Jesus for he cares for you.

How long are you gonna play the victim? If I had to write my life story, you will probably cry. But it’s not even worth mentioning because the past no longer matters. Stop rehearsing your pain, when you can’t go back and change your past.

Faint not. The bible instructs us to keep our eyes on God, keep his word written on our hearts and to obey his commands. Come on now, whatever is going on in your head is more than what is going on in real life. Nothing really matters. Every tangible thing is temporary. What matters is your salvation and what happens when you die. Don’t die over a temporary thing, Jesus already did that :).